Knisley will have his biopsy surgery in the next few days. No matter what news we receive, God is my God, He is our God. He will be with me. He will be with us.
When I begin to fear what the future looks like, I know I have to refocus my thoughts. When I am grateful, I can see Gods hand.
This is the day which the Lord hath made, We will rejoice and be glad in it. Thou art my God, and I will praise thee: thou art my God, I will exalt thee. O give thanks unto the LORD; for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever. Ps 118:24, 28-29
Today, I am thankful for:
Dr Stuart, Knisley’s surgical oncologist
Beth, and her doctors – they have stepped in to help us, and guide Beth.
34 years of marriage, in all these years we have a pattern of trusting God, together, leaning on Him, leaning on each other. I don’t have to question where Knisleys faith is, I know. He is not doubting Gods work in his life, or in our lives.
Our daughters – Beth and Jayme-and her Mendy – our greatest earthly gifts of joy, and encouragement
Answered prayer
I know God is with me
I know His mercy will sustain me
Restful sleep last night
Verses and thoughts shared that are careful, caring and encouraging
My manna – what I seek out and get for my manna is what will feed my soul. (In Old Testament times, God fed the children of Israel daily in the wilderness. He left manna (a kind of bread, sustenance) each morning for them to gather to feed their family every day. My manna, food I need for my soul, must come from Gods word every single day.
I cannot depend on others to sustain me or my faith in these days. Only I can get from scripture and lean into the Spirit within for what I need for each day.
-as for my manna, what feeds me today- I cannot depend on that to feed me tomorrow. I must get each day what I need for that day.
Some manna for my day today- Lamentations 3:21-25 (Italics are my thoughts)
This I recall to my mind, therefore have I hope. I think on what God has done for me, for us in the past. He has shown Himself to us in so many ways. Why would He go with me then, and not stay with me now. It is my hope. I cannot let my mind dwell in what ifs, or statistics. He alone is my hope.
It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed: even when it feels like we’re consumed (my mind becomes frazzled, this cancer diagnosis has taken us by surprise, I’d say I feel like life is spiraling a bit right now) because his compassions fail not. He is compassionate, He is not an angry God, punishing me or my husband, or our daughters. He loves and cares for us. He has compassion- feeling with me what I am feeling, caring for me in my desperate situation. In this, I have to choose whether I will trust Him or not.
His mercies are new every morning: I am frail and afraid in a new way every day, daily I have to see His mercy and care for me. great is Thy faithfulness: I choose to trust because I have seen Him faithful before.
The Lord is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him.
The Lord is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him.
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